Day 5
Yay...Day 5! Not sure whats so special about today, but it is! I did wake up later then I should have, but still managed to get a great deal done - Alhamdulillah. I went to visit a friend who had given birth to twins. Both girls and adorable mash' Allah. My friend (non-muslim) is suffering from post natal depression. Her twins were born at 32 weeks (two months early) and are in the hospital being cared for. I wasn't really sure how I should console her or what to say - I felt like saying 'trust in Allah' your pain will end..but had no idea how to articulate it to someone I had only met a few times in the past few months (met her through an excel course I had been doing where we became friends - I thought maybe I should have at least one friend in Northampton). Anyway, for some reason she feels comfortable talking to me so I have become her ears for a short period of time - this got me thinking! Uh oh :-) Sometimes it feels good to talk to complete strangers who don't know much about you or your life, yet here I am sharing my thoughts and feelings with people I don't know and maybe will never get to know. I do always feel the need to be 'strong' and not show weakness. Many people were surprised at how 'together' I was soon after mum died - only Allah SWT knows the reality of this though. The way I see it, Allah almighty is the one who created everything and has power to do anything he wills - why then should I go to the mere creation that has no real control when I can call upon one who does and can change anything and everything?? So whilst I dont mind talking and sharing with people, if I want real change in my life, then I feel we first need to call on the Almighty and ask for his help - ALWAYS.